Life and death.

I feel like I've been...thinking...a lot more than usual. I've been taking more time to just think. I've been through some difficult times but for the most part, my life is so easy. My family is financially secure, I go to a great school where I don't have to worry about my safety and a school that I love. There have been several people in my life who have passed on...and death is so confusing to me. I don't think we can ever really understand it until it happens and well, then you can't come back and tell anyone how it goes. I know that lots and lots of people die each day...is there someone who cares for all of these people? Is there someone planning a funeral for them? Whenever I see a homeless person, I'm sad for them. I can't imagine not having a home or the neccessities essential for life...but what about death? When they die, who will remember them? It breaks my heart. What I'm trying to get at is, I want to make an impact during my life. You can't change anything once it's over. Once your life is lived, once you have died, you can't come back and say, 'Oh shit, I really didn't mean to do this...' or 'I really do love you dad, I wish I had shown it more'. It's something that I myself need to work on - if I died today, would I be happy with the way I had lived my life? I'm a procrastinator. I often wait to do projects until the last minute, homework and basically everything too. I often say, "I'll do it later/tomorrow/soon." and then it never happens but I need to change my life now. If there are things that I am doing that I don't want to be done, that I don't want me to be remembered by, I need to change them because life is a gift. It isn't a given, it's a gift. It can be taken away in the blink of an eye. A young man who graduated from my highschool a few years ago passed away last week. He was hit by a drunk driver...25 years old. A life cut short. Rest in peace.

Holly and I are in the beginning stages of beginning the nonprofit. I'll reveal more details soon but I am very excited.